Tuesday, April 13, 2010

My C-Section Scar

My c-section scar doesn't really bother me. It's low, near my pubic bone and very few people are every likely to see it. I don't think it bothers my husband. It simply joins the three smaller appendectomy scars that I have on my abdomen as well.

Every now and again I wonder what some stranger would think of it. Would it make me less attractive in their eyes? Would they find it off putting? Does it make me less sexy?

My c-section scar is 5.5 inches long. To think, an ENTIRE human being came out of that one spot. An entire human being that weighed 7 lbs 5 oz and was 19.5 inches long. Knowing where nature intended for him to emerge, it shouldn't be that amazing to me, but it still is.

I often think of the bumper sticker I once saw: Scars are tattoos with better stories.

I don't think my scar mars me or makes me less beautiful. It reminds me that I am alive, that my son is alive. I will forever carry the mark of my love for him on my body. Different than stretch marks, this one is deliberate, is more precise than the movement of my body stretching around the existence of a human being.

Sometimes my scar catches my eye and makes me worry. I think that is the nature of a woman. I also know that years from now it will catch my eye, when my son has long moved out of my house and is living his life, and that scar will cause me to smile and trace it gently, with love in my heart and a smile on my face.

4 comments:

hushmama said...

i didn't have a c-section but i do appreciate the positive and lovely thoughts you have about your scar.

found you through mbc and i'm following your feed :)

www.hushmama.com

tara said...

Thanks for visitingme. I hope you'll be back often. It's great to make new online friends. I'm off to check out your blog!

Emalee said...

so sweet what a great way to think of your scar that way. thank you for stopping by my blog! hope you have a great weekend!!

Birth Stories said...

Hi Tara, us here again!
We really like this post too, do you mind if we re-post this on our site as well with a link back to you?
Thanks
Michelle :)